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Date: 2015-10-07; view: 466.

The blonde head burrowed against the pillow, willing the persistent voice away.

"Sweetheart, you promised."

Lily groaned. "Not fair…" Anna had extracted the promise during a critical moment in their lovemaking last night.

"Come on, Lily. It's our last day here," she pleaded.

Very reluctantly, Lily pushed herself up and swung her legs over the side of the bed. Anna was there with baggy shorts and a pullover shirt. "I hope you appreciate how difficult this is for me, Amazon."

"I do, Pygmy. I appreciate everything about you." She helped Lily get the shirt over her head. "Ready?"

Lily fell back on the bed, but Anna grabbed her wrists and pulled her to a wobbly standing position. "Okay, okay." The sleepy woman fell in behind her lover, shuffling her feet as they walked to the door.

"Do you want your sandals?"

Lily shook her head. She had resigned herself to open one eye slightly so as not to trip over anything. She closed it to a mere slit when they stepped into the brightly lit hallway. Anna led them down the hall to the stairway, and two flights down they emerged onto a path that ran directly to the beach.

The sky was getting its first light, sunrise only about 15 minutes away. When they reached the end of the path, Anna dragged a lounge chair to a secluded spot just beyond the palms that lined the beach. Leaning against the back, she opened her legs for her lover to lie back against her. Lily did so immediately, and closed her eyes in slumber as Anna wrapped her long arms around her middle.

"Lily? Do you know what today is?"

It was still mostly dark, which meant to Lily that it wasn't day at all. "Is this a trick question?"

"No. I'll give you a hint. It's February 6^th. Do you remember what happened on February 6^th?"

Against her will, Lily was slowly waking up. "The earthquake," she said somberly.

"That's right. Three years ago today," Anna reminded her.

Lily smiled softly and squeezed her lover's hands. "And the day we met."

Anna pulled a hand free to retrieve something from her pocket. "It's a very special day to me, sweetheart. I want us to remember it always."

Lily felt something sliding against the ring finger on her left hand. As she opened her eyes, the sight nearly stole her breath. In the glint of the sunrise, she saw the Cartier tri-colored twist that adorned her finger. Of course, she didn't know it was a Cartier; only that it was the most beautiful ring she had ever seen. And Anna Kaklis had just put it there!

"Lily, I want you to wear this so that you'll always remember the promises I'm about to make." Anna sat up straight and leaned over the smaller woman's shoulder. "Lily Stuart, I promise to be there for you always, whatever you may need. I promise to put my love for you in front of everything else in my life. And I promise that my heart will always be your home."

Lily's unbelieving smile took up her whole face. Anna Kaklis had just committed to her forever.

"And I promise not to let even the most appealing automotive designs distract me from your blinding beauty."

Lily laughed with delight. Anna always had to be Anna.

"And I promise to never, ever tell my father the story about you and the doggie door."

Now fully awake, the grinning blonde pulled her feet up and turned around in the chair to face her partner. Scooting closer, she draped her legs off the sides of the chair so that she was now straddling Anna's lap. "You have no idea what this means to me." Suddenly serious, she looked directly into the smiling blue eyes, now sparkling as the sun peeked slowly over the horizon. "Anna, until this very moment, Mom was the only one who ever said she'd always be there for me. I can't tell you how much I treasure what you've promised me today."

Anna answered with a deep kiss that for her sealed their future.

"Will you wear a ring from me?" Lily asked hopefully. Anna seldom wore jewelry other than earrings and her Rolex wristwatch.

"I would love to wear your ring."

"What kind of ring would you want?"

"I'll wear whatever you like. It's a gift from you; it should say you."

Some people thought matching rings were kind of hokey, but Lily had always dreamed of a shared symbol. "How would you feel about wearing one just like this one?"

"I think that would be perfect. In fact, I sort of hoped you'd say that. Now I won't have to take this one back." Anna reached again into her pocket, extracting an identical twisted band and placing it in her partner's hand.

"You are sooooo good."

Yeah, I know.

Lily held the ring alongside her own, confirming that they were exactly the same. "I haven't practiced any words, but I know what I've dreamed of saying to you since the first time I realized I was in love with you."

Taking Anna's left hand in her own trembling hands, she slipped the band onto the long slender finger. "Anna Kaklis, I promise to love you always, and to support you in everything you do. I promise to accept all of you, and to work through everything that life throws at us, just to be with you. I promise to do my best to never let you down." Both women understood that coded reference to Lily's struggle with alcohol.

Anna looked at their hands together. We're married.

"And I promise to change the oil every 3,000 miles, no matter what."

Anna chuckled. She had asked for that.

"And you know that picture I took of you in the bathtub when Chester jumped in? I promise not to put that one on our Christmas cards."

* * *

Binders Books now occupied space on the brand new single level east wing of the Endicott Mall. At 12:02 p.m., Skye Steinberg announced to her customers that it was time to step out of the store and into the concourse. Having seen the posters throughout the mall today, everyone expected this pause in their shopping day.

The mall's public address system was wired to a receiver at the nearby Presbyterian Church, where at 12:04 the church's colossal bell rang 27 times, once each for every person who lost their life at the mall three years ago in the Culver City Quake.

A moment of silence followed as Skye remembered the beautiful dark-haired woman who had visited their store that day. Anna was her name, she learned, and she had stopped by the mall a month ago to say hello and check out the new store. She was with a blonde woman, whom she introduced as the only other trapped survivor of that day's devastation. The two women were clearly in love.

Seven thousand miles away in Fiji, the two survivors shared a lounge chair as they silently watched the beach come to life. The year behind them had been personally devastating, especially for Lily, but somehow they had found their way home. Today, their hearts had opened wide for the comfort and security only a lifetime commitment could bring.

THE END

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DISCLAIMERS

Disclaimer #1: These characters are of my own creation, but if you want to imagine that they look like certain familiar people, I won't mess with that.

Disclaimer #2: This story is about two women in love, and all that goes with it. If you find that idea offensive, if you aren't old enough, or if you live where reading such depictions is not allowed, this isn't for you.

Disclaimer #3: [Insert favorite other disclaimer here.] Angst-meter very low for this story.

This is the third story in my series with Anna and Lily, the first being Shaken, followed by Stirred. FYI, I worked my way through college as a bartender.

Thanks to my trusted beta reader and fashion consultant, Tami, and to LA Tucker, who also gave it a read. Their contributions made it a better story. Of course, if you don't like it, it was probably because of something they made me change.

KG MacGregor
kgmacgregor@aol.com

This is for my Sweetcakes, who helps me with my grammar and spelling.

Without her, I don't think I could write about love at all.

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CHAPTER 1

"I'M SO EXCITED about seeing Sarah."

"Shhhh! I love this part! Listen."

Anna Kaklis rolled her eyes indulgently and leaned back into her seat. Her partner was very possibly the only flyer in America who actually paid attention to the safety messages before takeoff.

“…in the unlikely event of a water landing, your seat cushion may be used…” the flight attendant droned.

"Just what exactly is a ‘water landing'? I mean–by definition–doesn't a landing have to involve land?"

Anna chuckled. She'd heard it all before, but it never stopped being funny. In fact, even the anticipation of what Lily would say started her giggling. "Maybe it's–"

"Wait, there's more." The blonde woman held up her index finger to shush her again.

“…seatbelt fastened while in your seat, as unexpected turbulence may occur at any time."

"Isn't that what makes it unexpected?" Lily mused.

"I think they mean–"

"Shhh! Here's my favorite part!"

“…place the mask over your face, tightening the straps by pulling on the tabs on each side…”

“…and continue to breathe normally," Lily mouthed in unison with the rote instructions. "Like I normally breathe bottled oxygen from a dangling plastic cup in a decompressed cabin at 30,000 feet!"

Anna just shook her head. She'd been flying regularly since she was 11 years old, and had never once questioned the presentation of the safety drill. "Are you through?"

"Well… I am if she is," the blonde answered, gesturing toward the flight attendant. "But I can't make any promises if she starts talking again."

Said flight attendant interrupted the two women to get their drink order and to explain their choices for breakfast entrees. One of the perks of being Anna Kaklis' sweetheart was that they usually rode in first class, a real treat for the young attorney. This morning, the guys in the back got a cold green banana and a soggy cellophane-wrapped muffin.

"Carolyn said she might change her mind about having a baby herself after seeing what Vicki went through. She said she fully expected Vicki's head to turn all the way around on her shoulders in the delivery room," Anna laughed.

"But she was healthy the whole way through, wasn't she?"

"Oh yeah. But apparently, she was miserable the last couple of weeks. Carolyn said she gained a lot of weight and wouldn't go out of the house. I think the actual birth was relatively smooth, but she was in labor a long time."

"It'll be good to see them again." Lily's thoughts went to their last meeting, the camping trip to Yosemite almost a year ago. So much had happened since then: she had lost her mother; she and Anna had parted briefly while she struggled with her drinking; and three months ago they had committed their lives and love to one another on a beach in Fiji. "I can't believe they asked us up to Seattle so soon after the baby was born."

Anna laughed knowingly. "I think Carolyn used us as an excuse to force Vicki's mother to go back to New Jersey. She sounded desperate when she called."

"Well I don't care why she asked us. I can't wait to see Sarah."

Two and a half hours later, the 737 broke through Seattle's cloud cover. Since they'd packed together in a single roll-on, the pair bypassed baggage claim in search of their friend.

"Anna! Lily!" Carolyn worked her way through the crowd to her friends. The tall redhead–no, her curly hair was a dark brown this time with blonde tips–smiled and waved excitedly.

"Carolyn!" They greeted one another hugging and rocking like the old friends they were. The Seattle programmer didn't do anything halfway. "We're so excited for you and Vicki!"

"Thanks! I can't wait for you to see Sarah. She's gorgeous, just like her mom." Carolyn was beaming from ear to ear with pride. "Is this all your stuff?" She gestured at the rollerboard.

"We're only here one night, you know. I sort of forced Lily to decide before we left home what she was going to wear." Anna teased Lily about her penchant of trying on 10 different things before finally getting dressed.

"Can I help it that I have a dynamic fashion sense?" Lily stuck out her tongue and turned toward their host. "So how are you guys adjusting to having a baby in the house?"

"I'd say it's been very eye opening. In fact, we have to open our eyes around one a.m., then again around 4:30 a.m. I'm not complaining, mind you. But I really had no idea how much it would impact everything."

The three friends reached the 4Runner and loaded their bag in the back.

"I'll get in the back seat," Lily offered, recognizing that both Carolyn and Anna would need lots of legroom. "Try not to crush me when you push your seat back, Amazon."

"Why don't you just sit up here in the cup holder?" Anna countered, earning herself a playful pinch in the ribs. "Ow!"

"Listen to you pick on that poor woman. When did you get over being so serious?" Carolyn asked her friend, amazed at this new mischievous demeanor.

"Oh, about three years ago, when I found myself trapped underground with this imp. I had to learn to fight back," Anna explained.

"Don't let her kid you, Carolyn. She started on me as soon as I pulled her out from under that bookcase. I almost put her back."

Anna reached behind the console to caress her lover's calf. "Don't worry about Lily. You can see she gives every bit as good as she gets." The tall woman turned in her seat to find Lily's eyebrows arched at the subtle innuendo.

"I can believe it. By the way, ladies… there's something I need to talk to you about before we get home," Carolyn said sheepishly. "I'd never lie to Vicki, but I sort of gave her the impression that it was your idea to come this weekend."

"What'd I tell you?" Anna spun back around and winked at Lily. "So you needed an excuse to get your mother-in-law to leave, right?"

The driver was quiet for a long moment as she gazed pensively through the windshield. "Guilty as charged. But it's not what you think. I really like Susan a lot, and she's been a big help."

Anna laid her hand on her friend's shoulder. "For what it's worth, we loved getting the invitation, even on short notice. And we don't even care about your ulterior motives."

"Thanks. I really appreciate that. But I'm afraid it would really hurt Vicki's feelings if she found out that I orchestrated all this just to have an excuse to put her mother on a plane this morning."

"How bad was it, Carolyn?" Lily asked from the back seat.

"Like I said, Susan was great. It's just that I had all these fantasies about Vicki and Sarah and me, and they all played out with my mother-in-law right in the middle."

Carolyn was obviously exasperated and in need of someone she could talk to about all this. "Go on," Anna prodded.

"You know, I dreamed for so long about coming home from the hospital and carrying Sarah into the house for the first time. But when the moment actually came, Susan insisted on carrying her so I could help Vicki. I think I could have done both. And the first time Vicki finally let me get up in the night between feedings to see about Sarah crying, Susan was already there, telling me I should go back to bed because I had to work the next day. So I felt guilty about being rested in the morning when Vicki was so tired every day. I know it probably sounds silly and childish, but I really wanted to be part of everything. These are all the things I wanted us to share. I feel like a… husband or something."

"I don't think it sounds silly or childish at all," Anna consoled. "I think it's really sweet that you want to share all this with Vicki."

"And we'll keep your secret," Lily added.

Carolyn and Vicki's home sat in a quiet subdivision in Redmond, not far from the programmer's office at Microsoft. The homes on their street were new and modern, with lush landscaping that thrived under Seattle's infamous rainfall. That this was a family neighborhood was evidenced by the occasional bicycles and soccer balls that lay temporarily forgotten in the light drizzle.

Their host filled them in on the details of the cover story as they were pulling into the driveway. "And now, you may want to put on your sunglasses before we go in. Between the little angel you're about to meet and her mom, you're going to see the most radiant sight on earth!"

Lily wrapped her arm around her smiling lover's waist as they walked toward the house. She and Anna hadn't talked about the prospect of having children for quite a while, but she knew this weekend would trigger the discussion once again. Undecided about her own desire for children, Lily knew that being committed to Anna meant also being committed to the things Anna needed in her life.

When the proud parent opened the door for her guests, she was immediately greeted by her partner, who held a finger over her lips to shush the new arrivals. The three friends whispered their hellos excitedly, and tiptoed through the house to the small bedroom beside the master suite. Neither Carolyn nor Vicki could conceal their pride and happiness as their guests peeked over the edge of the crib at the beautiful sleeping infant. Anna and Lily silently mouthed their approval, gushing appropriately that this was indeed The World's Most Beautiful Baby.

With that important detail settled, the foursome retreated to the kitchen for proper greetings.

"Vicki, you look fantastic!" Lily couldn't believe this woman had given birth only four weeks ago.

"Thanks. I'm really glad you guys could come. That'll probably save you from getting copies of every single picture this one takes," Vicki gestured to her partner, who was popping a disc into her laptop to load the most recent round of photos.

"That's alright. We understand. Hal and Kim send us about a dozen new pictures every month. When Jonah grows up to be president, his biography will be a piece of cake." Anna was as proud of her nephew as any aunt could be.

"Didn't you tell me that they have another one on the way?" Carolyn asked.

"That's right, a little girl due in about two weeks." Anna secretly congratulated herself on her own role in the conception of her niece. She had insisted that Hal, Kim and Jonah use the Labor Day Maui trip she had planned last year with Lily when it was clear that they wouldn't be able to go.

"So are you guys going to get the baby bug anytime soon?" Now that they had a child of their own, Vicki thought everyone should have such a joyous experience.

Anna and Lily exchanged quizzical looks, each waiting to see how the other might answer. Mercifully, Carolyn broke the impasse. "Okay, so it's not for everybody."

"It isn't that," Anna spoke up. "It's just that we haven't really talked about it. Maybe one of these days. Maybe not." She reached out and took her lover's hand. "I don't know if I'm ready to share this one yet."

Lily answered with a quick peck on the lips. "Is that so, Amazon?"

"That's so, Pygmy."

"Well aren't you two cute! Hey! Let's have a look at those rings." Carolyn had expected to hear news of their commitment soon after their Yosemite trip last year, especially given the conversations she had had with Anna about how to know if Lily was "the one." Not knowing about Lily's problems with alcohol, she assumed that dealing with Eleanor's death had taken a lot out of her friends.

Anna and Lily proudly held out their left hands, boasting identical twisted bands of tri-colored gold. Despite their private nature, they had both agreed that they wanted to share news of their commitment with Anna's family and their friends.

"Read ‘em and weep, George!" Lily goaded the patriarch as she and Anna laid their ringed hands side by side on the dining room table at the elder Kaklis' home. "Looks like we're all family now."

"Oh, my gosh!" Martine couldn't contain her excitement, jumping immediately to her feet and racing around the table to embrace the two women.

"Would you look at that! My big tough sister is a romantic mushball." Kim was thrilled that her stepsister had taken the leap. Though she knew that Anna truly loved Lily, she had worried that the failure with Scott would prevent her from making this kind of commitment again.

"Congratulations, boss!" Hal hugged his sister-in-law, and then turned to Lily. "You know, I've been around these Kaklis people for almost 15 years. Are you sure you know what you're getting yourself into?" he kidded.

"Yeah, I think so. The old guy's a little cranky sometimes," she gestured with a wink in the older man's direction. "But the rest of you make up for it."

George was well past his early objections to Anna's love affair with another woman, though the game with the small blonde continued to this day, and probably always would. But remembering how his daughter had expressed her disappointment last year that he had withheld his open approval of their relationship, he passed on the biting comeback this time and quickly reached out to embrace them both. "That's wonderful, Anna!"

The tall woman was moved by the unusual display of serious emotions from the staid man. But she fully understood the sentiment: her father genuinely approved.

"You're being such a good sport, George," Lily observed skeptically. "What are you up to?"

"Now what makes you think I'm up to something?" he answered mischievously.

"I don't know. I think you've learned how to get under my BS detector. That worries me."

Her maternal instincts on high alert, Vicki heard the sputtering first, long before the others had a clue that little Sarah was waking up from her nap. "I'm going to change her and feed her," she announced. "You're welcome to come in. We don't mind visitors."

The others waited until things quieted in the bedroom before slipping in. Carolyn had found the old style rocker at an antique store, restoring its ebony gleam as a gift to her partner. The room was dotted with Seahawks paraphernalia, mostly shower gifts from Vicki's coworkers. The newborn was dressed in a soft green terry jumper with the team's emblem on its back. No one could deny the beautiful sight of the tiny baby at her mother's breast.

"How's my sweetie-pie?" Carolyn leaned over her lover's shoulder to make eye contact with the nursing infant. "Huh? How's my little sweetie-pie?"

Lily nudged Anna, who promptly jabbed an elbow into her partner's side. She knew that Lily was laughing to herself about her observation that people always said things twice when speaking to babies or animals.

"You're so pretty!" Carolyn continued, wide-eyed and smiling. "Yes you are. You're so pretty!"

"She's beautiful," Anna concurred.

Vicki shifted the infant to her other breast. "She always wakes up hungry. Don't you, Sarah? Don't you always wake up hungry?"

"That's because I wanna be a big girl like my mommy. Isn't that right? You wanna be a big girl like your mommy," Carolyn cooed.

Lily was going to pee her pants. The next time a sentence was repeated, she was definitely going to pee her pants. "Is the bathroom this way?"

"First door on the left," Carolyn answered, completely oblivious to the blonde woman's private joke.

When Lily returned, she was happy to see her partner holding the baby to her shoulder, its tiny hands gripping the material on Anna's shirt. Vicki and Carolyn looked on proudly. They were going to be great parents.

"So Carolyn, have you decided whether or not you're going to have a little brother or sister for this angel?" Lily asked.

"Actually, we're thinking maybe next year. I want to take a couple of months off so I can be with Sarah when Vicki goes back to work in August, so maybe about six months after I go back to work would be a good time to get pregnant. I don't want to take advantage of the family leave policy at work, you know, being gone so long."

"You're a braver soul than I am, taking on two little ones at the same time," Anna said. "Of course, if we ever had one, I'd have Lily too. That would be about the same thing."

"Hey! I resemble that," Lily pouted. "Just because you're so much older…”

"Listen to you two! You're acting like an old married couple."

"We are an old married couple," the dark-haired woman grinned. Teasing her mate with the running joke, she continued, "That's what we are, isn't it? An old married couple."

"And some of us are a little older than others," Lily reiterated with a knowing wink.

Anna and Lily, both very sensitive about invading Carolyn's motherly turf, declined Vicki's offers to help change and bathe the baby or to hold her for extended periods of time. Watching the new parents as they fussed in tandem over the infant's every need, Anna couldn't help but envy her friends. On display was a fierce connection between the two lovers, now deepened further by this tiny miracle.

* * *

Lily ran back into the house, wet from carrying their suitcase out to the 4Runner in the rain. She wished she'd packed her green sweater, but Anna was insistent that she make up her mind and choose only one outfit for Sunday. Had she known that her partner would be more dressed up, she wouldn't have opted for this denim shirt. Lucky for her they weren't flying Southwest Airlines, or people might mistake her for a flight attendant.

"We had a great time seeing your little girl," Anna told their hosts as she gathered the rest of their things. "Vicki, thanks for letting us come up on such short notice."

"Oh, we didn't mind at all. To tell you the truth, it was a good excuse to get my mother to leave without actually telling her she'd worn out her welcome." The co-conspirators remained mum as a surprised look washed over Carolyn. "Don't take this the wrong way–I love my mother–but she was here doing all those things I wanted Carolyn to do. I think it's really important for both of us to bond with Sarah as much as we can, especially in these first few weeks. Mom was kind of cutting into that, you know?"

Carolyn wrapped her arms around the mother of their child and declared, "I love you. Did you know that? I love you."

"Now she's doing it to Vicki," Lily sniggered as she and Anna headed to the car to give their friends a private moment.

"Knock it off, Pygmy! You hear me? Knock it off!"

That sent Lily into a fit of laughter, and despite her earnest attempts at self-control, Anna soon joined her.

* * *

The petite blonde slid through the churning water, coming to rest on the tall woman's thighs and wrapping her legs around the slim waist. Face to face, they held each other tenderly, their smiling eyes a window to the connection they felt. Despite their naked state, this emotional link transcended their sexual relationship; if possible, it was more intimate. And that it would end with lovemaking later this evening was unmistakable.

"Did you have a good time this weekend?" Anna asked. They'd gotten home only an hour earlier, and both decided to forego their usual Sunday night routines of preparing for the work week ahead in favor of a relaxing soak in the cool night air.

"I had a wonderful time. But then, I was with you, and I always have a wonderful time when I'm with you."

"You're such a sweet talker." Anna leaned forward for a kiss. "Mmm. Sweet lips too." Her hands traveled up the naked back to pull Lily closer. "I just love my life with you, Lily."