KiTxva: rTuli iyo Tqveni cxovrebis gza?

Date: 2015-10-07; view: 784.

pasuxi: al.yazbegis xevisberi goCas sityvebiT gipasuxebT: kaci salaRobod ar gaCenila qveynad, `kaci tanjvisaTvis aris gaCenili~. miT umetes sulieri cxovrebis gza, WeSmariti RmrTismsaxureba ekliani, viwro, devnisa da mwuxarebis gzaa. amaze Tavad qriste RmerTi gavafrTxilebs: `me mdevnes da Tqvenc devnili iqnebiT~. verakaci am gzas ver gaivlida, rom ara RmerTis didi Zala, nugeSi da Semweoba. saTnoeba yovelTvis garSemortymulia tkiviliTa da mwuxarebiT, sikeTe ki-borotebiT. yvela saqmis dasawyisi Znelia. miTumetes sulieris.

`saTnoebaTa dasawyisi mZimea, magram gagrZeleba _ sasiamovno~

_ gvaswavlis ioane oqropiri.

sakuTari nebis aRkveTisa da sakuTari Tavisadmi umkacresi momTxovnelobis gareSe SeuZlebelia RvTismsaxurma saTnoebis gzaze raime warmatebas miaRwios. sxvas rom mouwodo, Tavad unda iyo Rirseuli. advilia, uqadago sityviT da sxvebs marTali cxovrebisaken mouwodo, magram Zalze Znelia, moipovo RmrTisagan WeSmariti mqadageblis ufleba, radgan es ufleba mxolod simarTleSi, siwmindeSi, tanjvasa da brZolaSi gatarebuli cxovrebiTa da sulieri gamocdilebiT moipoveba. momwons piTagoras es sityvebi: `qandakebas garegnuli ieri amSvenebs, xolo adamians - misi saqmeni~.

adamians ver moatyueb. SeiZleba is ver grZnobs, an kidev Tvals xuWavs Tavis codvebze, magram Seni codvebi mas grami ar gamoepareba. hoda, Tu namdvili ar xar, RvTismsaxuris Sesaferisi cxovreba ara gaqvs, ar mogismens da Sesabamisad verc gamoasworeb, verc Secvli mas. arada Cveni movaleoba da samsaxuri swored adamianTa gamosworeba da gadarCenaa. RmrTismsaxuri Tu xar, namdvili unda iyo: Tavmdabali, patiosani, simarTlismoyvare da gamtani, saRmrTo madliT ganaTlebuli, sulieri xedvis mqone da adamianTa moyvare.

Tu adamiani ar giyvars, mas codvebs ver apatieb. miT umetes mis codvebs ver aiReb da mis gadasarCenad ar itanjeb. locvaze didi Sroma ar arsebobs. vambob locvaze da ara locvebis kiTxvaze. es umZimesi ramaa! mTeli uxilavi samyaro gebrZvis. es samkvdro-sasicocxlo brZolaa keTilsa da borot sistemebs Soris. roca kaci mosaxsenebels gitovebs da Sen mis gadarCenaze loculob, boroti sulebis risxva modis Senze, rogorc xilulad, ise uxilavad; da Tu ara xar gamocdili, saRmrTo suliT ganaTlebuli, ver gauZleb, danebdebi da Tavad waxdebi. es brZola siwmindes, asketizms, did sibrZnes, sulier xedvas, nebisyofas, simamaces da adamianis siyvaruls moiTxovs. Tu es niWebi ara gaqvs da ityvi, rom sxvebze loculob, an sxvebs sulier brZolebSi vmoZRvravo, tyuilia es!... anda, ar loculob da Tu ar loculob, e.i. qristesTan orgulob! RmerTma gvaSoros!

dideba da madloba RmerTs yvelafrisaTvis!

Zneli da mZime iyo Cemi cxovrebis gza, iseve, rogorc sxva Cemnairebisa. marTali giTxraT, bevri mawvales.… iyo bevri tkivili, axloblebis dakargviT gamowveuli mwuxareba, saxl-karis usafuZvlod gauqmeba (dRemde ara maqvs), devna, rogorc mTavrobidan, ase sasuliero pirTaganac (RmerTma SeundoT),KKКГБ–sgan TvalTvali, muqara, avariebis mowyoba, fizikuri ganadgurebis mcdelobebi da bevri sxva ram... magram saRmrTo moSurneoba, samSoblosa da simarTlis siyvaruli da sulis mxneoba RmrTisagan sul mudam mqonda.

qarTulma eklesiam komunisturi reJimis periodSi mZime Jami gamoiara. patiosani mRvdelmsaxurebi didi gansacdelis winaSe idgnen. reJimi, romelic yvelas da yvelafers akontrolebda, sasuliero pirTa urCobas arafriT ar Seurigdeboda da arc egueboda. mokled, maT `sabWoTa eklesia~ sWirdebodaT... marTalia, Zneli dro iyo, gankiTxviT ar vambob, radgan mainc adamianebi varT. bevrma ver gauZlo. zogma didkacobis JiniT, zogma ubralod – SiSiT, zogi Segnebulad hyidda suls...

im dros quCaSi anaforiT siarulic aRmsarebloba iyo. iseT dReSic vyofilvar, aRsarebas arc aravisgan ar vRebulobdi da arc aravis vabarebdi, radgan `Cekistebi~ niadag aRsarebis gaTqmas iTxovdnen da ara marto Cekistebi, aramed is sasuliero pirebic, romlebsac suli ukve gayiduli hqodaT. mRvdeli rom aRsarebas gaTqvams, ra mizeziTac ar unda iyos, siglaxea. mere mRvdlad aRar unda iyos!

adamians SiSi Tan sdevs. mec mqonia, magram SiSs unda sZlio. rom dasZlio, marTali unda iyo, marTali. simarTle ar unda daTmo. roca simarTles icav, maSin TviTon RmerTi gicavs. roca marTali xar sikvdilisac ar geSinia. rac ufro uaxlovdebi sikvdils, miT metad gaZlierebs RmerTi, metad grZnob mis sidiadesa da yovlisSemZleobas. qristes msaxuri ar SeiZleba laCari iyos. Tu ver uZleb, unda waxvide. gaixseneT daviT guramiSvili:

`xucesi unda mamaci, ar Tu jabani, mxrdalia.

xucess ar eTqmis: `WirSigan ver Seval, saridalia~.

im Znelbedobis Jamsac hyavda qarTul eklesias mamaci, qristes erTguli, simarTlisa da samSoblosaTvis Tavdadebuli msaxurebi (Tumca cota), romlebic ver gastexes, ver daimorCiles, romlebmac ori batonis msaxurebas Tavganwirva da tanjvis gza arCies, romelTa nawili mxolod RmerTis saswauliT darCa cocxali. swored aseTebis tanjva da locva eqaCeboda ers RmrTisaken, rodesac uRmerTobaSi iZireboda qveyana. samarTliani RmerTi Tavis nebaze gamoabrwyinebs da gaumJRavnebs xalxs maT vinaobas da saqmeebs. gansakuTrebiT minda aRvniSno gabriel beris Rvawli. es didi wmindani gmirulad ebrZoda borotebas. is didi sulieri maswavlebeli gaxldaT, amitomac ver itandnen. magram naxeT _ ubralo xalxi rogor hyvarobs da efereba?!