KiTxva:L mama giorgi, ratom aris, rom Cvens droSi wmidanebi ar aRasruleben iseT saswaulebs, rogorc es Zvel droSi xdeboda wmida mamaTa mier. ra aris amis mizezi?
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KiTxva:L mama giorgi, Cven cocxal anu dRes momqmed wmidanebTan urTierTobis gamocdileba ara gvaqvs da arc vicnobT maT. ra rCevasa da kurTxevas mogvcemdiT maTTan misasvlelad, ra aucilebeli moTxoovna unda davicvaT?
pasuxi: roca midixarT wmidanTan, umjobesia sami dRe mainc iyoT namarxulevi. RmerTis sidiade iTxovs moSiSebas, mokrZalebas da Tayvaniscemas. es ar niSnavs, rom RmerTs ar surs SenTan urTierToba, magram adamianis bunebaa dRes gadagvarebuli da codvis mwikvlSi amosvrili. pirveli da ZiriTadi, rac unda sTxovo wmidans, Cemi azriT, is aris, rom man gagagos, ra aris RmerTis neba Senze. ra surs RmerTs, ras elodeba RmerTi Sengan. ra aris Seni wuTisoflad mosvlis arsi, Seni misia! rogorc amas gaarkvev da es SeiZleba pirvelsave misvlaze ar moxdes, aramed, imisda mixedviT, Tu ra mdgomareobaSia Seni suli, goneba da guli, radgan RmerTis misaRebad codvili adamianis sulsa da gonebas momzadeba sWirdeba! mokled, rodesac gaarkvev amas, mere unda sTxovo RmerTs, dagayenos im gzaze, romelic Tavad mas surs SenTvis. amis Semdeg ki unda gamoiTxovo kurTxeva, Zala da Sewevna, rom RmerTis mier miTiTebuli gza Rirseulad ganvlo da Seasrulo Seni misia. rac axla mokled CamovTvaleT, Cemi azriT, mTavaria adamianisaTvis, romelic irCevs RmerTs, eZiebs cxonebas da saukuno netarebas. magram aqve unda iTqvas isic, rom aris RmerTis neba da aris RmerTis daSveba, anu RmerTi aZlevs adamians Tavisufal nebas, icxovros ise, rogorc surs _ airCios an keTili, an boroti. am arCevanSi RmerTi adamians Zalas ar atans Tumca impulses keTilis asarCevad ki ugzavnis!
dRes adamianTa umetesoba Segnebulad ar eZebs RmerTis nebas, radgan SiSobs, ar dakargos Tavisi xedviTa da surviliT mowyobili cxovreba, an kidev imis SiSiT, rom RmerTma maT monasterSi Sedgoma ar mosTxovos. getyviT: monasteri yvelasTvis rodia! monasteri _ berebis saqmea. da yvela ar aris beri.
bevri Tavisdauneburad dgas RmerTisagan gansazRvrul gzaze: an mSoblebis rCeviT, an moZRvris, an ubralod, Tavisi gaucnobierebeli gadawyvetilebiT ise, rom mas es arc uTxovia RmerTisaTvis. aseTebs kargad aqvT saqme!.... magram mainc unda miiRon dasturi wmidanisagan, gaacnobieron yovelive da iTxovon Sewevna, raTa udrtvinvelad ganvlon miwieri cxovrebis gza.
axla vnaxoT isini, visac garkveuli ara aqvs Tavisi daniSnuleba_misia. maTTvis, ra Tqma unda, ufro Znelia. radgan adamiani unda `gadaewyos~ da Secvalos bevri ram Tavis cxovrebaSi, magram `sjobs gvian, vidre arasdros.~ Tu adamiani ar dgas im gzaze, romelic RmerTma misTvis moisurva, ragind simdidresa da pativSi ar imyofebodes, sulier simSvides verasodes hpovebs. amitom adamianisaTvis mTavari, rogorc giTxariT, aris is, rom gamoiZios RmerTis neba masze da morCilebiT dauTmos RmerTis nebas.
axla gavagrZeloT wmidanebze: aris, roca wmidani geqceva ara ise, rogorc es Sen warmoidgine. wmidans SeuZlia ar mogces saSualeba, rom dausva winaswar gamzadebuli SekiTxvebi. aseT dros nu mieZalebi, radgan wmidans ver aiZuleb, jer erTi da meorec, wmidanma icis, razec xar mosuli. is upasuxod ar dagtovebs, magram is mTavarze muSaobs, is amzadebs suls RmerTis nebis misaRebad. SeiZleba wmidanma ar `migiRos~, amis gakeTeba mas SeuZlia, rogorc `delikaturad~, aseve `uxeSadac~ da es TavmdablobiTa da Tavis yvedrebiT unda miiRoT. wmidans SeuZlia gamogcados moTminebaSi, rwmenasa da moSiSebaSi da Semdeg migiRos. wmidanTan gamomcdelad da kadnierad misvla codvaa!.. wmidani, TandaTan, dagimyarebs ra sulSi `kontaqts~, SenTvis gasagebi gaxdeba, Tu rogor da ra saxiT moqmedebda SenTan mimarTebaSi. wmidans SeuZlia: codvilad mogaCvenos Tavi, gagexsnas, Zala gamoavlinos, mogeferos, mogces sinanuli, gagaxsenos codvebi, romelic arc ki gaxsovs. amis ostatoba aqvT wmidanebs. wmidanma xalxSi rom ar gamxilos, SeiZleba moyves raRac istoria `mis codvaze~, am dros azrobrivi signali mogawodos Sen ise, rom Sens irgvliv myofT azradac ar mouvaT, rom es Seni codvebi iTqva da ara mamaosi! wmidans SeuZlia pirdapir gipasuxos SekiTxvebze. SeuZlia mesame pirTan laparakSi gauwyos is, rac Sen gainteresebda, an kidev SeuZlia agalaparakos Sen TviTon da sakuTari piriT gaTqmevinos is, rasac misgan elodi ise, rom mxolod saubris dasasruls mixvdebi: es yvelaferi, rac mohyevi, Senve gexeboda da pasuxic iyo masSi.
wmidani sruliad akontrolebs masTan misuls! wmidani zemoqmedebs adamianze ara marto sityvierad _ mxilebiT an SegonebiT, aramed uCinrad, anu suliT ise, rom xmac ar gagces.
SeiZleba mTeli saaTi Sens axlomaxlo xalxTan ilaparakos, agiar-Cagiaros, ise, rom axlosac ver mixvide. magram nu ifiqreb, rom ar “mogxeda,” an ar `migiRo~!... ara – is manam ar `gagiSvebs~ taZridan, sanam Seni sulisTvis, im momentSi aucilebls ar moimoqmedebs ise, rom Sen arc ki gamogesaubros.
wmidans SeuZlia, zogjer Tavi Zalian ucodinar da codvil adamianad warmogidginos im dros, roca Sen hgoneb, rom is wmidaa. aseT dros nu amCatdebiT!.. an SeuZlia ise warmogiCinos Tavi, rom Seni problemis gadaWra mas ar ZaluZs. nurc aseT dros iqnebi sulmokle. aris, roca wmidani masTan kadnierad da Tavxedad misuls TviTon gamoiwvevs, gauRizianebs pativmoyvareobas. SeiZleba `Seuracxyos~ kidevac, ris gamoc es kaci `garbis~. riTac wmidani icavs mas da ganaridebs im codvisagan, romelic SeeZlo mas Caedina wmidanTan kadnieri da uxeSi miaxlebiT!.. zogjer wmidani gamoiwvevs adamians, romelic morwmune da patiosani kacis niRabSi borot sulsa da guls malavs. mokled, wmidans SeuZlia aTasnairad moiqces. mas yvela sityva, moZraoba, gaTvlili aqvs. gaTvlili aqvs isic, ramdeni adamiani miiyvanos masTan erT konkretul dRes. wmidani, Tavisi kacTmoyvare bunebidan gamomdinare, erideba adamianTa wyeninebas, magram xandaxan, roca es sulisaTvis aucilebelia, Zalianac atkens mas... dascems SiSsac!... Tumca, SiSs wmidanebi ukidures SemTxvevaSi iyeneben. wmidanma SeiZleba gagiSvas `nawyeni~, rom masze didi warmodgenis ar iqne da verc madliereba gamoxato raime saxiT.
nu ggoniaT, vinme `SemTxveviT~ mivides wmidanTan!... bevrs hgonia ase!..TiTqos megobarma miiyvana, an axlobelma daaZala da a.S; wmidanTan, rom midixar, es TviTon wmidanis `Cawyobilia!..~ is amas winaswar gegmavs da angariSobs, Tu ra sababiT da ra xerxebiT migiyvanos RmerTTan. adamianis sulze gaafTrebuli brZolaa wmidanebsa da borotebs Soris. wmidani gegmavs, boroti ki xels uSlis adamianis miyvanas eklesiaSi. amitom nu fiqrobT, rom iyaviT wmidanTan, magram rame sasargeblo Tqven ar migiRiaT. is ki ara, `zedac ar Semouxedavs~. ai, im dros, roca man `zedac ar SemogxedaT~ _ wmidani didi ZaliT, uxilavad muSaobs Tqvens sulze, gaaqvs cudi da gavsebs madliTa da energiiT, aseve moqmedebs Tqvens gonebaze da fizikur sxeulzec. wmidanebs Zalian uyvarT adamianebi. winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi RmerTi ar miscemda maT aseT Zalas. wmidanebi SeiZleba `gagiwyrnen~, magram arasodes g a n g i k i T x a v e n , radgan maTac codvebis didi gza aqvT gamovlili.
romelime Tqvengans Tu mosvlia TavSi aseTi kiTxva: - ratom RmerTma angelozebi ar daadgina mRvdlebad? maTac xom SeuZliaT xorcieli sxeulis miReba? arc mogividodaT da rom mogsvlodaT, verc upasuxebdiT!... me getyviT ratom: _ imitom, rom angelozebi ucodvelni arian, maT a r i c i a n c o d v a !.. isini RmerTis nebas zedmiwevniT aRasruleben da amasve iTxoven adamianTa modgmisaganac. radganac codva ar ician, isini mkacrebi arian codvilTa mimarT!.. m a T i b u n e b a c o d v a s v e r i t a n s !erT-erTi wmida mamis gadmocemiT mfarveli angelozi ar ekareba sigaretis mwevel adamians. dRes sigareti ki ara, ra saZagel codvas ar Cadian adamianebi!..
aba vnaxoT wmidanebi!.. radganac isini xorcieli bunebis arian, maTTvis ucxo ar aris codvebi. maT ician codva, codvis simZime. is, Tu ras ganicdis da rogor itanjeba codvili. amas wmidanebi sxvisi naTqvamiT ki ar ganicdian, aramed sakuTari gamocdilebiT. maT Tavadac aqvT Canadeni codvebi, da vinaidan RmerTma apatia maT codvebi da ician Sendobis sixaruli, erTi suli aqvT daexmaron codvilebs, Tan isini movalenic arian, miutevon codvils, radgan maTac miuteva RmerTma!... ziarebis wina locvebi geqnebaT wanakiTxi.... iq wmida mamebi codvebs rom CamoTvlian, ggoniaT, mxolod Cvens saswavleblad da momavali codvilebis wasakiTxad dasweres marto? ara babua, isini am sityvebiT TavianT codvebzec swerdnen da tirodnen. wmidani codvils rom uyurebs, Tavisi yofa axsendeba da mis mimarT siZulvils ki ara, sibralulsa da siyvaruls ganicdis. kidev gimeorebT: wmidanebs ise uyvarT adamianebi, rom sikvdilzec midian codvilis gadasarCenad. wmidanebi TavianT Tavze iReben adamianTa codvebs da exmarebian maT codvis gamotirebaSi.
adamianebze meoxeba ki ara, yofilan berebis istoriaSi wmidanebi, romlebic evedrebodnen RmerTs, rom mas Seendo borotisTvis Secodebani. aseT dones aRwevda wmidanTa siyvaruli codvilebis mimarT.
angelozebi bilwi da garyvnili adamianebis sazogadoebas arc ekarebian, miT umetes, maT sxeulebSi ar Sevlen TavianTi bunebidan gamomdinare! wmidanebi ki ucodviles adamianTa sazogadoebaSi trialeben da suliTac Sedian aseTi adamianebis sxeulSi, raTa aRZran maTSi RmrTisadmi swrafva, ase vTqvaT, `daqoqon~ da daicvan im borot sulTagan, romlebic Cabudebulebi hyavT maT da romelTa uxilavi ZafebiT arian Sekrulni. wmidanebs es SeuZliaT, radganac maT didi simtkice gamoumuSavdaT.
pasuxi: vin giTxraT, rom dRes wmidanebis mier ar aResruleba saswaulebi?!Zveli drois saswaulebs im Jamis adamianebisaTvis sxva datvirTva hqondaT _ maTi zogadi ganviTarebis Sesatyvisi. dRes adamiani ki ganviTarebis sxva safexurze imyofeba. dResac xdeba saswaulebi da ara erTi da ori, magram yvelaze didi saswauli, yvelaze aucilebeli da macxovnebeli saswauli, rac odiTgan dRemde aRusrulebiaT wmidanebs, aris uxilavi saswauli, anu saswauli ara adamianis gareT, aramed adamianis SigniT!.. es aris saswauli, romelic gardaqnis mis Sinagan samyaros. es aris sulis gawmenda da qriste macxovrisaTvis gulis momzadeba. am garegnulad uxilavi, magram yvela saswaulze aRmatebuli saswauliT qriste imkvidrebs adamianis gulSida amis Semdeg ki adamiani amCnevs mis gareT yovelwuTierad aRsrulebul uamrav saswauls qveynierebaze. wmidanis mier aRsrulebul am saswauls adamiani TvaliT ver xedavs, is mxolod grZnobs amas mis SigniT!.. am saswaulis wyalobiT adamiani Seicnobs sakuTar Tavs, mis sulier samyaros. wmida mamebi ki weren: _ `adamiani, romelmac SeZlo sakuTari Tavis Secnoba, ufro didia imaze, vinc ixila angelozio~_ ai, ratom aris, rom wmidanebi ar mieltvian xilul saswaulebs, Tumca SesaZlebelia es maTTvis!..
wmidanis daniSnuleba adamianis mimarTebaSi aris misi gadarCena, ganwmenda da RmerTamde miyvana da ara RmrTisagan boZebuli Zalisa da SesaZleblobebis gamovlineba-demonstrireba!
Tu adamians sulieri samyaro ara aqvs dasufTavebuli da momzadebuli, ra azri aqvs gauxeSebuli gulis adamianis Tvalwin, micvalebuli rom aRadginos wmidanma?... an kidev gaCndes da gaqres?!... es saswaulebi wamiT gaakvirvebs codvils, magram cota xanSi isev urwmunoeba daabnelebs eWvebiT! aseTi saswauliT urwmunoTa mcire nawilma SeiZleba iwamos RmerTi, magram es ver Secvlis maT sulier samyaros, radgan suli mxolod masze uSualo zemoqmedebiT iwmindeba da icvleba, da ara mis gareT nanaxi wmidanis Zalis dafiqsirebiT. adamianis gareT aRsrulebuli yvela saswauli mxolod ubiZgebs adamians rwmenisken, magram Tavisi mniSvnelobiT da SedegebiT ver Seedreba im saswauls, rasac wmidanebi adamianis sulze, mis Sinagan samyaroze uSualo zemoqmedebiT axdenen. wmidanis es saswauli anTebs adamianis gulSi rwmenis, sasoebis da siyvarulis Cauqrobel cecxls. cecxls, romelic wvavs masSi yovelgvari codvis fesvebs da aseve garedan momavali codvebis badesa da xlarTebs. es udidesi saswaulia, es adamianis Secvlis saswaulia, rac yvelaze Znelad a R s a s r u l e b e l i a!
did wmidanebs dResac ar uWirT purisa Tu oqros gaCena, materiis Secvla, kurneba, drosa da sivrceSi gadaadgileba, magram adamianis sulis Secvla gacilebiT Zneli saqmea da amasac aRasruleben dRes wmidanebi. Tumca am saswauls veravin xedavs adamianTagan garda imaTisa, viszedac aResruleba es saswauli. maSin, roca adamianis gareT aRsrulebul saswauls SeiZleba Zalian bevrma mohkras Tvali. gavixsenoT TviT qriste macxovris xiluli saswaulebi, rava, eqnaT uriebs sargebeli?! puri ganumravla, aTasobiT mSieri ganaZRo, xeibrebi da brmebi gankurna, lazarec aRadgina mkvdreTiT da kidev uamravi sxva saswauli, romelsac asobiT da aTasobiT ebraeli adevnebda Tvals, magram am garegnulma saswaulebma ver Secvales maTi gacivebuli da gandgomili guliebi!... maT rogoradac miiRes es saswaulebi, iseve uarhyves isini. magram naxeT saswauli qriste macxovrisa, romelic ar yofila xiluli, romelic aravis SeuniSnavs da romelzedac eWvic ki ar gaCenia, vinmes _ is jvarcmuli, sikvdilis momlodine, Tavisi RvTaebrivi madliT u x i l a v a d Seexo avazakis guls, wamebSi Secvala misi sulieri samyaro, misca mas sakuTari Tavis Secnobis unari da Zalac!... ai, es saswauli aris udidesi saswauli, Tumca aravis unaxavs, garda jvarcmuli avazakisa, romelmac qristes madliTve icno Tavad q r i s t e R m e r T i da es saswauli eqmna mas macxovnebeli, roca aTasobiT adamians, romlebic Zalze xSirad hxedavdnen macxovris xilul saswaulebs, ver eqmnaT sulis macxovnebeli, aramed piriqiT_dasasjeli!.. xuTi aTasma kacma puri Wama. naxeT ramdeni vinme afiqsirebda am saswauls? maT xorcieladac ganicades, radganac sWames, magram ver Seicvalnen!.. maT mxolod muceli gauZRaT!... xolo naxeT avazaki_jvarcmuli, natanji, sikvdilis momlodine, wesiT RmerTze umaduri unda yofiliyo, adamianuri bunebidan gamomdinare, magram rogorc ki Seexo uxilavi madli, g a n i c a d a s u l i e r i c v l i l e b a, aexila sulieri Tvalebi da icno q r i s t e! pirveli iyo xorcielad xiluli saswauli, romelic xuTiaTasma ixila, magram iseTiveni darCnen, rogorebic iyvnen. xolo meore aris xorcielad uxilavi saswauli _ saidumlo, is aravis unaxavs garda avazakisa, romelic am zemoqmedebis Sedegad Seicvala da icno qriste da aRiara kidevac !... is amas ver izamda, rom ara es saswauli!.. es saswauli ar yofila aRtacebis sagani m a s e b i s T v i s, es maTgan dafaruli iyo!.. magram macxovnebeli aRmoCnda erTisTvis! es igrZno mxolod erTma da verc moaxerxa xalxisTvis eTqva, rac moxda masSi!es aris swored is saswauli, risTvisac gardamoxda Ze RmrTisa qveynad!...mTeli misi amqveyniuri cxovrebis arsi, jvarcmis mizani _ codvilTa cxoneba!.. amitom WeSmariti morwmune unda eZebdes swored aseT saswauls! xolo urwmuno iTxovs xilul, xorciel saswauls _ mas “puri” unda. ki batono!.. wmidanebs SeuZliaT miscen maT es puri, magram iqneba es saswauli maTTvis mamxilebeli da dasasjeli, radgan, rogorc ki isev moSivdebaT, es saswauli maT daaviwydebaT!
xorcieli saswauli TviT qriste RmerTs ar daufasda. maT ixiles, magram ar iwames. qriste macxovarmac uTxra uriebs : `rom ar genaxeT, codva ar geqnebodaTo!” amitom ar aResruleba dRes urwmunoTaTvis xorcielad xiluli saswaulebi, raTa codva ar gauorkecdeT!!! saswaulis arsi da mizani, vimeoreb, mdgomareobs ara imaSi, rom wmidanis Zala dafiqsirdes, aramed imaSi, rom macxovnebeli eqmnes codvilebs!...
saswaulis Cadena SeuZliaT borotebsac, radgan Zalis gamovlineba maTac SeuZliaT, magram maTi es `saswaulebi~ mimarTulia adamianebis dasapyrobad da dasaRupad. wmida mamebi gvafrTxileben bolo Jamis saswaulebze!...
isini, romlebmac igrZnes wmidanis uxilavi saswauli, anu ganicades sulieri cvlileba, arasodes miidrikebian sxva `saswaulebisken~, da arc borotis `saswaulebs~ miiReben!
aqve minda giTxraT isic, rom wmidanma es uxilavi saswauli rom moaxdinos Tqvens gulSi, amisTvis Seni survili da Tanxmobac aris saWiro, Seni neba. es Sen unda gindodes RmerTs gauRo guliskari da amisTvis aitano droebiTi simZime, tkivili da tanjva!
me gisurvebT Tqven, rom wrfeli guliT SesdgomodeT RmerTs da mogcemodeT mgznebare survili maradiuli cxovrebisa; da Tqvens gulSi qriste damkvidrdeba! da roca es saswauli moxdeba TqvenSi, merwmuneT, yvela sxva danarCen saswauls ixilavT Tqven, radgan maSin sxva_ xorcieli saswauli ar iqneba TqvenTvis sasjeli da saziano, maSin TqvenTvis wmidanebi ar iqnebian dafarulni da `gaugebarni~. wmidanis cxovrebac xom saswaulia.