KiTxva: mamao, xilva gqondaT, gasvlis dro rom iciT?

Date: 2015-10-07; view: 755.

KiTxva: mama giorgi, Tu uxerxuli ar iqneba, gviTxariT, Tqven ramdeni wlis brZandebiT?

pasuxi: brZanebis ra mogaxsenoT!... getyviT ager, 75-e welSi gadavabije. rogor matyobT, gavZleb me 100 wlamde?(icinis)

_ RmerTma gacocxloT! _ vupasuxeT Cven.

_ hoda, daimaxsovreT, rasac getyviT: elia winaswarmetyvelis gamoCenis dro rom dadgeba, im dros unda gavide me mowameobrivi aRsasruliT...sikvdilis ki ar meSinia, ubralod, miyvars me adamianebi, Cemianebi miyvars! hoda, roca magrad momenatrebiT, qe Camoval isev aqeT (icinis)

pasuxi: sulieri kacis saqme sakuTari Tavis Secnoba da codvebis gamotirebaa. miwieri xvedri ki - tkivli da tanjvaa, da ara xilvebsa da gamocxadebebze ocnebebi!... RmerTs uyvars adamiani da uxaria masTan laparaki, magram amisaTvis didi simdablea saWiro. gaWirvebis Jams Tavis nebisaebr, mowyale RmerTi sxvadasxva saSualebebiTa da gzebiT cdilobs Sens gamoyvanas, gamxnevebas, gaZlierebas da es im dros xdeba, roca Sen amas arc ki moeli.

...movxucdi awi, zogjer Wamac maviwydeba... erTxel ise moxda, 20 dRis uWmeli viyavi. mxneobas arasodes vuCiodi, magram, marTali giTxra, cota davRaldi da CameZina. da swored am dros deda RmrTisagan meuwya Cemi gasvlis dro. adrec yofila deda RmrTisa mobrZanebuli. erTxel aseTi ram mibrZana:

_ giorgi, V saukuneSi wmida episkoposi awames samkveTeloSi. misi nakveTi sefiskveri dResac gaqvavebuli devs da Sen unda ipovoo!

didxans veZebdi. bolos ki vipove... saswaulia RmerTis Zala!

getyviT kidev: _ erTxel fuli damWirda Zalian, magram aravisTvis miTxovia. viyavi ise. erT dRes taZridan wamovedi qalaqisaken, sanam trasamde gavidodi, gzad rusis qali Semomxvda, mkiTxa:

_ mowameTel giorgis veZebo.

vuTxari, rom me viyavi.

meubneba: quTaisidan var. naTesavma ruseTidan 100 dolari gamomigzavna da mTxova, TqvenTvis amometana da sityviTac gadmomeca `serafime iyo mosuli da miTxra, giorgis fuli gaugzavneo.

_ vin serafime _ meTqi?

_ ar vici, batono, ase miTxra naTesavma aniCqamo.

_ morwmunea mere is aniCqa-meTqi?

_ kio - miTxra.

hoda, mivxvdi, vin iyo serafime... is fuli ar damixarjavs. anda, rogor unda damexarja (amoiRo jibidan da gviCvena). aq saqme fulze rodia, es xom didi siyvarulia. wmida aleqsi SuSania bevrjer damxmarebia... giorgi brwyinvale Zalian didi sulia... stalini samoTxeSia!!!

35.kiTxva: mama giorgi, ratom geZaxian `fexiTmosiarules?~

...aba frTebi me ar maqvs da... fexiT davdivar, albaT amitom (icinis) ise 35-jer var namyofi fexiT TbilisSo. 4-jer leseliZemde, 4-jer aWaraSi, saingiloSic, saqarTvelos mTianeTSic, svaneTSic vyofilvar fexiT.

erTxel giorgobis Tve idga. cioda. fexiT mivuyvebodi Tbilisisaken. gvirabSi erTxelac ar gavsulvar. rikoTis Zvel gzas vadeqi. moulodnelad mglebis xrovam wre Semomartya. ar SemSinebiao ver getyviT, xelT araferi mqonda. hoda, RmerTis nebas mindobili videqi, radan uazroba iyo rame geRona. am dros cxenze amxedrebuli kaci gamoCnda da mkacrad mkiTxa:

_ kaco, ra ginda amRam tyeSi da vin xaro?

_ giorgi var, Wognareli meTqi.

_ sxva giorgi Tu gagigia vinmeo?!

da im wams vifiqre- wm.giorgi aris ueWvelad meTqi...

fiqrze pausxi momago:

_ ho, ho, xedav gadamirCenixaro...

hkra maTraxi cxens da gaaWena. rom mivixed-movixede mglebi aRarsad Candnen. ise es Tqvenamde aravisTvis momiyolia.(icinis)

36. kiTxva: mama giorgi, `iaRovas mowmeebi~ Zalze momravldnen. Tanac maT aRmsareblobiT uflebebs da Tavisuflebas saxelmwifo icavs. aseT pirobebSi Cven, marTlmadideblebma, rogori pozicia unda davikavoT maT mimarT? visxdeT gulxeldakrefili da velodoT, sanam isini aqeT Semogviteven?

pasuxi: nu geSiniaT Tqven `iaRovelebis~, nurc sxva romelime seqtis, nurc sxva religiebis da nurc eSmakis, geSinodes mxolod RmerTis da codvebis qmnis. `ieRovas mowmeebis~ swavleba borotis gamogonebaa!.. maTTan ra unda WeSmaritebas?! da visTanac ar aris WeSmariteba, isini ganwirulni arian da maTTan ra esaqmeba qarTvelebs!. qarTveli bunebiT qristiania da Tu vinme mciredmorwmunebis gamo, an motyuebiT, raime danapirebis gamo aris maTTan _ TuU qarTvelia, gamova iqedan da daubrundeba marTlmadideblobas. Tu ar gamova... da iyos iq !.. sulgayiduli vis raSi argebs?! ra dRes, ra xval isini mainc uRalateben RmerTsac da ersac!..

Cven ra unda vqnaT da Cvens Tavs unda vebrZoloT!... roca qarTveli marTlmadideblobaSi mtkiced idgeba, roca mTeli misi cxovreba RmerTisaken iqneba mimarTuli, vin ra unda dagvaklos? iaron da iaron mag iaRoveleba wignebiT, ras dagvakleben!.. daiRlebian da miatoveben!...

magram dRes Cven TviTon varT meryevni. Cven ar varT mowodebis simaRleze. Cven TviTon bevr rameSi vcodavT da vaZlevT biZgs adamianebs, ar gaekaron mRvdlebs da eklesias!...

ucxoeTi amden fuls ggoniaT windauxedavad xarjavs `Cvenze?~ maT kargad aqvT Seswavlili Cveni eris rogorc sulieri, ise materialuri yofis problemebi. hoda, imedovneben mRvrie wyalSi Tevzis daWeras.

cota xnis win erTi kaci miyveboda, rom somxeTSi Cinelebs araferi gamouvidaTo. kaci ar Sedis maT maRaziebSio... Tu ar gayida Cinelma, somxeTis qvebis sayureblad ki ar Casulan Cinelebio!.. hoda, iaron iaRovelebma mag lamazi wignebiT da roca qarTveli ar mousmens, maSin TviTonve mogveSvebian. am iaRovelebis didi nawili sacodavi xalxia. nawili ki - borotis modgma. Cven `iaRovelebi~ ki ara, Zalian mzakvari da daxvewili mwvaleblebic ver mogvrevian!... e r i i w m i n d e b a da i c r e b a ! unda gamoCndes, vin, vinaa. Zalian bevri gadamTieli `gagviqarTvelda~, qarTuli gvarebiTa da saxelebiT daijgimebian. hoda, RmerTi gvexmareba imis garCevaSi, vin aris qarTveli da vin ara!...CvenTan vin ar cxovrobda, romeli eris warmomadgeneli. aravin ar dagviCagravs da arc maTi aRmsarebloba SegvizRudavs. yvelas Tavisi rjuli aqvs. icxovron, visac rogor unda, da Tu saxelmwifom kanoniT ganisazRvra, ra aris amaSi saSiSi? dRes msoflio mainc mogvTxovda da gvaiZulebda ase gagvekeTebina `demokratiuli Rirebeulebebidan~ gamomdinare. icxovron batono, magram!... Cvensas nu Seexebian!!!

ise safrTxe sxvebSi ki ar unda veZeboT, aramed sakuTar TavSi. Cveni safrTxe is aris, rom Cven TviTon vera varT WeSmariti marTlmadideblebi!.. ar gewyinoT, Tqvenc, vinc aq dgaxarT, arc Tqven ara xarT marTlmadidebelni!... marTlmadidebloba partiis wevroba ki ar aris, rom gaecno wesdebas da ixado sawevro. marTlmadidebloba _ es aris RmerTis mier dadgenili cxovrebis wesi. es aris sicocxle RmerTSi. RmerTTan urTierTobis erTaderTi WeSmariti gza! es aris yoveldRiuri cxovreba, romelsac didi gafrTxileba, zrunva, mondomeba, srulyofa da mecadineoba sWirdeba.

marTlmadidebloba, es sisavsea da amitom marTlmadidebeli ver gaxdebi mxolod erTi niSniT. marTlmadidebloba ar aris mxolod gulis an gonebis, marto.…sanaxevrod marTlmadidebloba iseve ar aris cocxali, rogorc xorci ar aris cocxali sulis gareSe!...

marTlmadidebloba aris RmerTis marTali, swori, WeSmariti dideba. rogor ggoniaT, isini, vinc dRes aramarTlmadideblebi arian, yvelani borotebi iyvnen?! ara, babua; bevri eri sxvagan imitom gadavida, rom marTlmadidebloba Zalian mZime da Zneli aRsasrulebelia. Znelia, babua, Zneli!!! mxolod marTlmadideblebs devnis ase sastikad boroti. Tu siZneles, tkivils, mwuxarebas ar grZnob, es imas niSnavs, rom Sen mxolod pirjvars iwer marjvnidan marcxniv da meti rame saerTo ara gaqvs WeSmaritebasTan.

marTlmadidebloba ar aris raime kanonis, an wesis, an ritualebis erToblioba. yovelive es adamians ise SeuZlia aRasrulos, rom raime saerTo ar hqondes marTlmadideblobasTan. gaixseneT makar didisa da eSmakis dialogi.

`marTlmadidebloba aris sulis iseTi mdgomareoba, roca adamians ar SeuZlia RmerTis gareSe. ar SeuZlia RmerTis dakargva da Ralati.~

marTlmadidebeli grZnobs RmerTs. sunTqavs RmerTis siyvaruliT. misTvis RmerTi umTavresia. kanonebi da wesebi ki, is saSualebebia, romlebsac mihyavxar am mdgomareobamde. magram ugulod Sesrulebuli kanonebi, TavisTavad arafris momcemia!..

marTlmadidebels stkiva suli da guli, roca xedavs usamarTlobas. RmerTTan orgulobas, roca xedavs daCagruls, gaWirvebuls, avadmyofs. roca xedavs uwesrigobas, siyalbes, qveynis gaCanagebas. ukanonod moWril xeebs, dangreul quCebs, yaCaRobas da kidev bevr umsgavsoebasa da uRmerToebas!

SeiZleba dRe da Rame eklesiaSi dadiodes kaci, magram WeSmariti marTlmadidebeli ar iyos. SeiZleba Zalian bevrs loculobs da marxulobs kaci, magram marTlmadidebeli ar iyos. gaqvs rwmena, magram ara gaqvs siyvaruli - ara xar srulyofili marTlmadidebeli! gaqvs siyvaruli, magram ar misdev da ar icav simarTles - ara xar marTlmadidebeli! icav marxvebs, eziarebi, magram gZuls moyvasi - ara xar WeSmariti marTlmadidebeli! mRvdeli xar, wirav, iRvwi, magram ar ganicdi gaWirvebulisadmi sibraluls - ara xar sruli marTlmadidebeli! mowyalebas gascem, aSeneb eklesias, magram yovelive amas angarebiT akeTeb ara xar namdvili marTlmadidebeli! sufTa xar, keTilsindisierad aRasruleb RvTismsaxurebas (mRvdeli), mgram usamarTloba suls ar gtkens da laCrobiT xuWav Tvalebs - ara xar WeSmariti marTlmadidebeli!.. patiosnad Sromob, gaWirvebuls exmarebi, cols ar Ralatob, magram Svilebs ver zrdi Rirseulad – ara xar marTlmadidebeli! kargi morwmune, meojaxe, qmris erTguli qali xar, magram Suri gWams sxva qalebisa, an keTildReobis, an garegnobis – ara xar marTlmadidebeli! da ramdeni ramis Tqma SeiZleba. xedav, babua?!... marTlmadidebloba eris sisrulea! eris srulyofilebisaken SesaSuri swrafva! marTlmadidebloba, RmerTis saTno, RmerTis gasaxari cxovrebis wesia da ara mxolod mkerdze jvris tareba da kanonebis, wesebis yalbi Sesruleba.

Cven, roca mTeli arsiT SevudgebiT RmerTs, vis SeuZlia Cveni damarcxeba. `iaRovelebs~, kaTolikebs, budistebs, uriebs Tu Cinelebs?! aravis, babua!... Cven, rom samRvdeloebaSi sruliad wmidanebi gveyoleba, iqneba vinme gulgatexili qarTveli? _ ara! hoda, es kargi droebac iwyeba da yvelam erTad unda movindomoT.

37 kiTxva: bolo Jamis erT-erTi rusi wmida mama, n i k o n i, romelic komunisturi reJimis dros ewama, sicocxlis bolo dReebSi, gadasaxlebidan axloblisadmi miweril werilSi wers: `veragi da gandgomili droeba dadga!.. xalxs ras mosTxov, roca sulieri winamZRvrebi danebdnen!... guldawyvetiT minda giTxra Cemo suliero Zmao, droeba awi sul ufro xarbad da muxanaTurad STanTqavs adamianTa sulebs!...~

`... radgan im dros sulieri moZRvrebic nebayoflobiT aRasruleben antiqristes neba-survils ise, rom arc sindisi da arc saRvTo movaleobis grZnoba aRar SeawuxebT.

`... droSi naxaven, TiTqos raRac gamoswordeba, TiTqos xelisufleba molba, mere Seicvleba kidevac, TiTqos suliereba aRorZinebas daiwyebs da aRdgeba eklesia-monastrebi, magram icodeT, Cemo suliero Zmebo da debo, sul ufro daumegobrdiT sifrTxiles! sul gaxsovdeT mociqulis sityvebi: `ara `adgili~ gaswmends kacss, aramed kaci gaswmeds adgils?... ifxizleT `sulierad, radgan didia mzakvris Canafiqri!..~

`... imxanad, qveyana sulier `TviTkmayofilebas~ miecema, sulier aRorZinebaze kvexnas daiwyeben, fexis xmas ayolilebi, sxvaTa mosaCveneblad morwmunis garegnobiT taZrebs simravliT Seavseben. qveynis didebulebi da warCinebulnic `morCilad~ moixrian qeds wirva-locvebze, magram cxonebis gzas acdenilebi, farisevlebis mier miwodebuli `maTrobelaTi~ gabruebulni jojoxeTSi CaeSvebian!~

`... magram mowyalea RmerTi, romelic Tavis rCeulebs aRuxels sulier Tvalebs da isinic SeZleben, aRmoaCinon im droisaTvis qveynad sasuliero pirTa aseTi `nairferovneba~: