KiTxva: mama giorgi, dRes axalgazrdebis aseT raodenobas berobis survili rom gaaCnia, xom aris es sulieri aRmavlobis niSani? ras urCevdiT berobis msurvelT.

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pasuxi: rogor giTxraT!... namdvili beroba Zalian Znelia, magram RmerTi da deda RmrTismSobelia Semwe da Zalis wyaro im monazvnebisa, romlebic TviTon RmerTis mowodebiT Sesdgomian am mZime, magram amave dros yvelaze aRmatebul gzas.

dRes Zalian Wirs cxovreba!... da bevri ubrZolvelad gaurbis viRacas, an raRacas. zogi gaurbis cxovrebis sirTules, sxvebi sakuTar Tavs da a.S. gasagebia, rom es erTgvari devnaa, magram es jer kidev ar aris berobis utyuari niSani. da es `gaqceva~ adamianis sisusteze metyvelebs, susti adamianebis saqme ar aris beroba, babua!... beroba Zlieri sulis adamianebis mowodebaa. beroba araa profesia, rom niWierma kacma aiTvisos Tavisi survilis sawinaaRmdegod! berad unda daibado!

berobis survilSi TavisTavad cudi araferi devs, magram safrTxe isaa, rom axalgazrdebis didi nawili ver acnobierebs imas, Tu saidan da visgan moewodebaT maT es survili!... aucilebelia, monazvnobis msurvelma gaarkvios _ aris misi es survili _sulis moTxovnileba, `sulis Zaxili~ Tu raRac mZime cxovrebiseul momentSi miRebuli daufiqrebeli gadawyvetileba. aris es RmerTis mowodeba, Tu eSmakis mier Cagonebuli azri!... an kidev viRacis zegavlena, Tu wminda wignebiT moxibluli gonebis aRtacebuli ocneba!

yvela aq CamoTvlili, garda erTisa, romelic aris R m r T i s m o w o d e b a _ aucileblad miiyvans savalalo mdgomareobamde monazvnobis msurvels.monastris pirvelive siZneleebi did sasowarkveTilebaSi agdebs axalgazrdebs, romlebic ocnebiT moxiblulni midian iq. ecvlebaT azri imaTac, vinc raRac ekonomiuri siduxWiris gamo, an sxva gansacdels gamoqceulebi mosulan monasterSi. eSmakis STagonebiT mosulni _ nawili garbis da nawili ki rCeba da saSinel zians ayenebs sakuTar suls da sxvebsac. mxolod suliT berebs axarebT monastruli cxovreba, radgan es maTi bunebaa, es maTi cxovrebaa. maT siZnele da iwroebani ar afrTxobs da medgrad miiweven win sulier safexurebze.

amitom monazvnobis msurvelma unda garkvios, misi gadawyvetileba aris RmerTis mowodeba Tu ara! rogor gaarkvios?! _ amisTvis arian wmidanebi da amave dros mSoblebi. didia mSoblis kurTxevis Zala. amisi magaliTebi bevri geqnebaT wakiTxuli. wmidani piruTvnelad gaagebinebs axalgazrdas, aris Tu ara beroba misi saqme. da Tu is axalgazrda jiuti araa, keTilad wauva saqme.

wmidanis kurTxevas kidev erTi didi pliusi aqvs: es kurTxeva iqneba mcveli da nugeSismcemeli im adamianebisa, romelTac mouwevT monastruli cxovreba da amave dros imaTic, romelTac mouwevT erSi cxovreba, radgan boroti gamudmebiT miawvdis maT azrs, rom isini TavianTi mowodebis gzas acdnen. erSi darCenilebs miawvdis im azrebs, rom erSi isini raime saRvTos ver gaakeTeben, rom mxolod monasterSi gadairCenen suls da naTesavebsac gadaarCenen. swored aseTi azrebis mosagerieblad waadgebaT adamianebs wmidanis kurTxeva. es kurTxeva iqneba imis garanti, rom es adamianebi swored iq dganan, sadac miuCina maT RmerTma adgili.

piradad me ar mivesalmebi 20_25 wlis biWebisa da gogonebis monazvnobas. m e T u m k i T x a v T, e s s a x i f a T o a ! ! !

am asakis, vnebadauTrgunavi axalgazrdebis monasterSi sulieri winsvla Zalian Znelia da udides Sromas moiTxovs. winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi waxdebian da sxvebsac waaxdenen. kargad daixsomeT erTi ram: monasteri, sadac wmidani ar aris, monasteri araa!...is saerTo sacxovrebels ufro hgavs. winamZRvars, romelsac ara aqvs sulieri xedva, saRmrTo ganaTleba da sakuTari vnebenis damarcxebis gamocdileba, is ver iqneba sxvaTa WeSmariti moZRvari. is iRupavs Tavs da aucileblad daRupavs sxvas!.. wmida mamaTa wignebis kiTxviT SeuZlebelia uxelmZRvanelo cocxali adamianebis sulebs, romlebic Zalian gansxvavdebian TavianTi sulieri, gonebrivi, fizikuri TaviseburebebiT. monazvnebis sulieri xelmZRvaneli monasterSi g a m o c d i l i, g a m o b r Z m e d i l i w m i d a b e r i unda iyos!

ra sulieri brZolebis gamocdileba unda gaaCndes 20_25 wlis axalgazrda kacs, romelic, ukeTes SemTxvevaSi, sasuliero seminariidan an akademiidan xdeba monastris winamZRvari! mas rom sulieri xedva ara aqvs, amas isic adasturebs, rom ase advilad daTanxmda egzom rTul da sapasuxismgeblo sulier Tanamdebobaze da, radganac sulieri xedva ara aqvs, aseTi pirovneba ufro zrunavs imaze, rom gaumarTlos ndoba im ierarqs, romelmac akurTxa am Tanamdebobaze. is zrunavs, gazardos Zmebis ricxvi. aSenos, dargos, moawyos, moxatos, magram umTavresze _ monastris upirveles daniSnulebaze_sulis ganwmendaze ver izrunebs, radgan ara aqvs sulieri xedva!!! m o n a s t e r s a r e x u m r e b i a n ! ! !

erTxel erTma mkiTxa: `borots raSi unda ainteresebdes adamianis monasterSi Sedgomao?~. ainteresebs da mere rogor kidev!... sul ukan mouxedavad miarbeninebs monasterSi adamians. ratom?! _ imitom, rom Tavidanve, RmerTis nebas acdenili adamiani namdvili beri ver gaxdeba! is aucileblad cru monazvnad Camoyalibdeba, romelsac mxolod moCvenebiTi, garegnuli niSnebiRa Tu eqneba da ara WeSmariti saTnoeba. droSi ki is borotisagan miiRebs Zalas, SeiZleba, aaRwios sasuliero Tanamdebobazec da borotis WurWlad qceuli daiwyebs namdvil berebTan dapirispirebas. aseTi “beri” xdeba ra borotis gegmis nawili da a R m a s r u l e b e l i, Zalian didi zianis momtania da SeuZlia ise `aamRvrios wyali~, ara erTi da ori adamianis suli daRupos!..

antiqriste adamianTa sazogadoebis yvela fenaSi cdilobs SeRwevas da Tavisi `kadrebis~ damkvidrebas da ra zianis miyeneba SeuZlia borotis `kadrebad~ qceul sasuliero pirebs, TqvenTvis Zneli warmosadgeni ar unda iqnes. swored rom sasuliero dawesebulebebSi cdilobs boroti damkvidrebas saukuneebis manZilze, radgan aq ukve srulad SeuZlia mas adamianis daRupva. is, rom samonastro cxovrebis istoriaSi yofila SemTxvevebi, roca sruliad axalgazrdebi aRkvecilan monasterSi, ar SeiZleba ganvazogadoT da gamoviyenoT d R e saxalgazrdebis gaucnobierebeli nabijebis gasamarTleblad, radgan is calkeuli magaliTebi istoriidan, beruli sistemis erT_erT saidumlos warmoadgens.

v saqarTvelos gaabrwyinebs ara monazonTa raodenoba, aramed WeSmariti msaxurebis sulieri simaRle!

v ara taZrebis raodenoba, Tundac isini oqros gumbaTebiT iyos damSvenebuli, aramed saqarTvelos gaabrwyinebs taZarSi mwirveli da mlocveli adamianebis siwminde da saRmrTo moSurneoba!

v da kidev, saqarTvelos gaabrwyinebs ara ubralod pirjvris gamomsaxvelTa raodenoba, aramed isini, vis gulebSiac qriste daidebs binas!

14. kiTxva: mama giorgi gasagebia, rom Cvens ers codvebis gamo daatyda Tavs amdeni ubedureba, tkivili, mwuxareba da gansacdeli, magram dRes xom eris didi nawili eklesiaSi dadis, abarebs aRsarebas, eziareba... Cven ki mainc gviWirs rogorc sulierad, ise ekonomiurad da politikurad. rogor axsniT amas?

pasuxi:eris RmerTTan Serigebis aucilebeli da WeSmariti piroba ara taZrebSi zereled misul adamianTa simravlea, aramed morwmune adamianebis – rwmenis, sinanulis, locvis, moSiSobis, morCilebis xarisxi, aRsarebis siwrfele da codvebidan gamosvlis mtkice gadawyvetileba! wm.ioane oqropiri wers: `imitomaa yvelaferi daqceuli, imitomaa yvelgan gamefebuli ukiduresi uwesrigoba, rom Cven, rogorc sanaxaobaze, veZebT xalxis simravles!... xalxis krebuli, sayvarelo, rodesac igi RmerTis nebas ar asrulebs, arafriT gansxvavdeba maTgan, vinc saerTod ar arsebobs!...~

getyviT ager: aRsareba erTia, xolo sinanuli _ meore... gulis Semusvrilobis, sinanulis gareSe naTqvami aRsareba ra Sedegis momcemi unda iqnes?!! sinanulia mTavari... sinanuls iTxovs RmerTi codvis sanacvlod, radgan sinanulia is saSualeba, romliTac Semcode adamians ubrundeba RmerTTan urTierTobis moraluri ufleba da, roca ers ar aqvs sakmarisi sinanuli, maSin kacTmoyvare RmerTi, isev Cvenda sasikeTod, gvigzavnis tkivils, mwuxarebas, SimSils da sxvadasxva saxis gansacdels da amiT gvibaTilebs codvebs. codva materiaa, is ar qreba. is uaryofiTi, boroti energiaa da misi ganeitraleba mxolod codvis gamotirebiT an tanjviTa da tkivilebiT aris SesaZlebeli.

Cven vabarebT aRsarebas, mRvdlebic gvpatioben codvebs, magram aq mTavaria gvpatiobs Tu ara RmerTi!!! Tqven iciT, rom aRsarebis saidumlos TviTon qriste RmerTi eswreba da ugulod da zereled misuls is ar Seundobs, miuxedavad imisa, rom mRvdelma SeiZleba apatios. ai, amaSia aucilebloba!!! Cven rom mRvdelma Segvindo codvebi, RmerTma Tu Segvindo?!Tqven bibliidanac iciT: roca RmerTi Seundobda ers, an calkeul adamians, maTi cxovreba sagrZnoblad icvleboda keTildReobisaken. maTze RvTis kurTxeva modioda.

me momewona Tqveni SekiTxva - e. i. azrovnebT.

Tu RmerTma Segvindo, maSin ratom varT dasjili? ratom varT isev cud yofaSi? e.i. gamodis, rom RmerTma ar Segvindo!.. maSin rogor gavigoT, romeli codva gvepatia da romlis gamosasyidad kidev unda vitanjoT?! amitom viZaxi, babua. c o c x a l i w m i d a n e b i e Z e i e T – m e T q i !... wminda mRvdeli xedavs yovelives da is ar Segindobs, Tu RmerTs ar surs jer Seni Sendoba da daginiSnavs epitemias. is mkacric aris, magram, amavdroulad, Zalian mowyale da mosiyvarulec. mas SeuZlia, Seni codvebi daidos da RmerTis winaSe TviTon gamoitiros igi. Zalian mcire droSi gamoitirebs iseT codvebsac, romlebsac Tqven wlebs moandomebdiT. rodesac wminda mRvdlisagan gesmiT Sendoba, icodeT, es qristesgan Sendobaa!

yoveli kacis msajuli – sakuTari sindisia. sindisi getyvis, ras imsaxureb, an kidev, esa Tu is gansacdeli romeli konkretuli codvis gamo gewvia. aRsarebaze mimavals sindisi getyvis, xar Tu ara mzad, an ra guliT midixar. RmerTs Cveni dasja ki ar uxaria, es Cven gvWirdeba. usamarTlobaze rom gvsjis, e.i. misianebi varT, Torem RmerTi ar dagvsjida, gvaclida da bolos saukuno satanjvels migvcemda..`is, vinc codvis gamo ar isjeba, ambobs wm.ioane oqropiri, yvelaze ubeduri adamiania!~

Cven, vimeoreb, qristes qveyana varT!...(es sityvebi im JurnelSi gadamikeTes!.. TiTqos me ar vicode, ras niSnavs qristianuli qveyana da ras qristes qveyana!!!), amitom ers rame codvis laqa ar unda hqondes. es tanjva da sisxli, mwuxareba, siduxWire Cveni gansabaneli iyo. Cven mZime Jami ukve gamoviareT...wm.berebma eris codvaTa didi umetesoba ukve gamoitires, Cvenc sakmaod vitanjeT... iseTi dro dadgeba saqarTveloSi, ara Tu samRvdelo dasi, aramed xelisuflebaSic wmidanebi gveyoleba... mefe udidesi wmidani iqneba...

yovladwmida RvTismSobeli qristes gabrwyinebul saqarTvelos daaxvedrebs!!!

15. kiTxva: mama giorgi, Tqven xSirad axsenebT cocxal _ dRes moqmed wmidanebs. mogviteveT, magram dRevandel eklesiaSi am mcnebas, cota ar iyos, sxva TvaliT uyureben. erTma sasuliero pirma isic Tqva: `sad naxeT wmidanebi da vin arian wmindanebi dReso?!..~

pasuxi:naxeT ra dReSia Cveni cnobiereba!... Tumca ra gasakviria, sul ociode wlis win dedamiwis 1/6–ze adamianebs umtkicebdnen: `RmerTi ar arsebobso~.

im sasuliero pirs hkiTxeT erTi: `eSmakebi Tu arian da sad arian-Tqo?.~ Tu eSmakebi ar arian, maS visRa ebrZvis Cveni eklesia?! Tu eSmakebi arian da isini aq arian, icodeT, rom wmidanebic aq arian! RmerTs wmidanebi yovelTvis hyavda qveyanaze da eyoleba, miuxedavad imisa, xedaven Tu ara maT codvebiT suldabnelebulebi!... adamianebs, didi tanjvisa da vnebaTa daTrgunvis fasad, dResac ise, rogorc Zvelad, sicocxleSive eZlevaT wmidanobis dasturi RmrTisagan, rogorc udidesi jildo. wmida ioane oqropiri ara Tu, aRiarebda dedamiwaze calkeuli wmidanebis yofnas, aramed, naxeT, ras ambobda:`x a l x s Seadgenen w m i d a n e b i da ara brbo!~

ar arsebobs adamianTa moRvaweobis arc erTi sfero, arc erTi fena, sadac wmidanebi ar moqmedeben.erSi wmidanebis saidumlo moqmedeba Zalian didi da saintereso Temaa... dResdReobiT yvelafer amas, ubralod, ver gaigebT da SeiZleba `yovlismcodne da Tavdajerebulma marTlmadidebelma~ –aTasgvari mkrexeloba, mwvalebloba da xiblSi yofna mogvaweros, amitom wmidanebi am saidumlos eris cnobierebis amaRlebasTan erTad nel-nela gagvixsnian. ise imaT, vinc `Zalin bevri ician marTlmadideblobaze~, minda wminda werilidan Sevaxseno: `rac ar gesmis, imiT mxolod gaoceba SegiZlia, mis uaryofas ki nu gabedav!~. yvela n a m d v i l i mRvdeli wmidania... m R v d e l i, romelic ar aris wmidani, ar aris WeSmariti mRvdeli!!!

wmidanebi, ara marto samRvdelo an sabero dasSi moRvaweoben, aramed saidumlod moqmedeben codvil adamianTa wreebSic maT gadasarCenad. swored saidumlo wmidanebi ukvalaven gzas codvilebs eklesiaSi misasvlelad, xolo eklesiaSi moqmedi wmidanebi ki amzadeben maT sasufevlisaTvis. adamianTa modgmaSi wmidanebi arian is rCeuli RvTiskacebi, romlebmac ucdomlad ician samoTxisaken mimavali gza. mxolod maT uwyian, rogor gaiyvanon wuTisoflis junglebidan codvili adamianebi da aiyvanon caTa sasufevelSi. rogorc caze varskvlavebi gansxvavdebian erTmaneTisagan zomisa da sikaSkaSis mixedviT, ise wmidanebic gansxvavdebian Zalisa da suliwmindis niWis mixedviT. zogi wmidani suliwmidis madlis matarebelia, zogi ufro didi, suliwmidis WurWelia... jerjerobiT mets ver getyviT, arada, saTqmeli Zalian bevria... erTi icodeT, es codna yvelaze win Cven, qarTvelebs gagvexsneba!...

hoo.. araa saintereso, didi vaJa fSavela rogor esvena 20 weli uxrwnelad miwaSi?!...

erTxel erTi Tavxedi iyo amosuli, xalxs velaparakebodi, sityva gamawyvetina da miTxra: `sad arian wmidanebio?.. da Tu arian, ras gvemalebian? ratom ar gvexmarebiano?!~.

_ naxeT, ras mekiTxeboda?!.. mindoda mexeTqa cxvirSi, radgan mas wmidanebi ki ar ainteresebda, armed borotis ZaliT CemTan dava undoda!...

qriste RmerTi CamobrZanda, xalxSi dadioda. rava, daimala Tu? ar Tqva vin iyo Tu?! ar gamoavlina, RmerTi rom iyo.?! aTasobiT mSieri gaaZRo. micvalebulebi aRadgina, xeibrebi da brmebi gankurna. ra sikeTeebi ar Caidina. rava miiRes?!.. igive xalxma ar acva jvars?! Tu imas ityviT, uriebis sinodma ver icno qristeo?... maT icnes qriste, magram mainc jvars acves!.. ver miiRes ki ara, ar miiRes, radgan qriste RmerTma uTxra maT: `Tqven mamaTqvenis saqmes akeTebT. mamaTqveni eSmak arso~. dRes ggoniaT bevri ver xedavs wmidanebs?! xedaven da ar undaT. bevri ki marTlac ver xedavs, isic Tavisi codvebis gamo.

wmidanebi moqmedeben da aRasruleben RmerTis davalebebs da moqmedeben RvTisgan dadgenili normebiT. Sen rom ver xedav, gana wmidanis bralia?!.. amaT undaT, saswaulebiT daumtkicon wmidanebma!...Qqriste RmerTi ki brZanebs: `boroti modgma eZebs saswauls, magram ar miecema, garda ionas saswaulisa.~ saswauli wmidanisaTvis Cveulebrivi ramaa, magram aq saqme imaSia, ra Sedegi eqneba mas codvilze, waadgeba mis suls, Tu codvas ufro daumZimebs. saswaulic ver moaqcevs zogierTebs. wmidanebma ician es da Cveulebriv cxovroben xalxSi. rava, icnes wmidani, iTxoves daxmareba da wmindani ganudga? ar daexmara? ase ar xdeba...

yoveldRe aTasobiT saswauli aResruleba, magram ara im formiT, rogorc codvil da gulborot xalxs ainteresebs, radgan maTi es interesi borotisganaa. mze yvelas erTnairad anaTebs da aTbobs, magram Sen Tu ver grZnob, es arc mzis bralia da arc imas niSnavs, rom mze ar arsebobs! Sen RmerTi ar gainteresebs da ginda wmidani ixilo da dagexmaros?. wmidanebs RmerTi uyvarT, maTTvis RmerTia yvelaferi. wmidani rwmenis moSurnea. Sen ki RmerTis arc erT mcnebasa da Segonebas ar asruleb. siZulviliT, garyvnilebiT, avazakurad cxovrob da kide pretenzia gaqvs daxmarebisa?!.. daxmareba ar aris, rom RmerTi kidev amdens giTmens da dros gaZlevs moqcevisaTvis?!..kaci kacs ar hgavs, qali _ qals!.. aRarc adaTi, aRarc zrdiloba. qali ufrosobs, iviwyebs samSoblos, rjuls, ojaxs, saxels, namuss da yvelafers!... eSmakis WurWlebad qceulan da kidev utifrad iTxoven: `sad arian da rad ar gvexmarebian wmidanebio?~

_ vai, Tqve glaxebo! male naxavT, wmidanebi rom arian da mere rogorebi!..

wmidanebi marto keTilebi ki ar arian, aramed sastikebic. wmidanebs mxolod gankurneba ki ar SeuZliaT, senis Seyrac ZaluZT. wmidanebs mxolod nugeSiscema ki ar SeuZliaT, SiSis zariscemac ZaluZT. wmidanebi marto mSvidobismyofelni rodi arian. isini uZleveli da daundobeli meomrebic arian. Tqven Tqveni avadmyofuri da codviT dabnelebuli gonebiT, warmosaxul wmidanebs eZebT. aseTebi namdvilebi ar arian! Tqven iseT wmindanebs eZebT, rom Wkua iqiT daarigoT da aswavloT. egeTebi RmerTis wmidanebi ar arian. Tqven iseTi wmidanebi gWirdebaT, rom Tqveni garyvnileba, usamarTloba, samSoblosa da eklesiis Ralati, RvTis gmoba, Zarcva, qurdoba da kidev bevri ram unaneblad-Zmakacurad gepatioT. Tqven Tqveni sulis wmidanebs eZebT gadarCenisaTvis, magram aseTebs gadarCena ar uweriaT. radgan antiqristesi arian. vinc RmerTisgan aris da RmerTi uyvars, ixilavs RmerTs da mis wmidanebs. axla saavadmyofoSi rom wevs da Tveebi ver gamova iqidan, kidev ikiTxavs, arian Tu ara wmidanebio?!... da kidev Tu ver moego gons, tanjvas tanjvaze daumateben… is wmidanebi, romlebic mas Turme emalebodnen!..

saSiSi da sastikia RmerTi TavxedebisTvis.! Tqven ki nu geSiniaT, Tqven RmerTis moyvare xalxi xarT. ucodvelebi ara xarT, magram... (icinis), RmerTi ganaxebT borotebis tanjvas da vaebas.