KiTxva: mama giorgi, Tqven didi gulistkiviliT axseneT, rom saxl-kari gagiuqmes. ris safuZvelze gaakeTes es da ra iyo amis mizezi?

Date: 2015-10-07; view: 528.

pasuxi: safuZveli aranairi ar hqondaT maT. mizezi ki is iyo, rom me urCi viyavi rogorc xelisuflebisaTvis, ase calkeuli sulgayiduli sasuliero pirebisaTvis. me simarTlis Tqma guSin ar damiwyia!. 80-ian wlebis dasawyisSi gazeTSi iyo Cemi statia, romelsac komlis gauqmeba mohyva. me bevri saxis devna ganmicdia, magram es yvelaze mtkivneuli iyo. imitom, rom mamiseuli saxli iyo da Cems debsac ekuTvnodaT. bevrjer momismenia debisgan sayveduri: `ra iqna Seni mRvdloba, riT ver daetie. sxvebisTvis saxlic SeiZleba da manqanac. Sen ki mamaCvenis saxlic dagvikargeo!..~

am sityvebis mosmenas, biZia, nebismieri wameba sjobia. es dResac miklavs guls. me Cemi cxovrebiT ar mqonda ufleba vinmesTvis zianis miyenebisa, Tundac debisTvis. ki, isini Cemebi arian, magram maT ar moeTxovebodaT Cems gamo. Cven Zalian did gaWirvebaSi gazrdilebi viyaviT. mama omSi daiRupa. gvzrdida ufrosi Zma. omianobis dros yvelas uWirda, babua, ar gegonoT vxumrobde _ dResac ver vitan tyemlis wvens. SimSilobis wlebSi imdeni tyemali mqonda naWami, dRes misken gaxedvac ar SemiZlia (icinis). erTxel dedam stumrad wamiyvana naTesavTan, ase 6-7 wlis viqnebodi. naTesavma raRac-raRaceebi gamoitana, isinic xelmokled cxovrobdnen. dedam Tavi moikla: `araferi ar gvinda, maZRrebi varTo~. me gulSi ise gavubrazdi dedas, rom vifiqre: `erTi es qali momakvlevina-meTqi~ (icinis) ise mSioda...

rogorc ar unda yofiliyo Cems gamo, Cems debs da naTesavebs ar unda ganecadaT tkivili. es mawuxebs, Torem pirad devnas me xalisiT vuZlebdi. d e v n a imisi niSania, rom sworad cxovrob!.. rom marTlad dgexar!... da CemTvis, rogorc mRvdlisaTvis amaze umTavresi arc iyo rame da awi raRa unda iqnes!..

uSiSroebaSi `damuSavebaze~ Tvrametjer vyavdiT sxvadasxva dros!... veraferi momixerxes, an ra unda eqnaT CemTvis. me patiosnad vcxovrobdi, vloculobdi SeZlebisdagvarad. didxans miTvalTvalebdnen. monasterSi Cemi oTaxis gverdiT patara adgili iyo, SeRebes, miumates-moumates da iq TavianTi kaci Seasaxles. didi boroti iyo!... Rameebi ar Zinavda da arc me maZinebda. yovel diliT cinikurad momesalmeboda. Rame ki ise Sublgarecxilad xmaurobda, rom gagxeTqavda gulze. magram Cven qristes msaxurT gvevaleba, moTminebiT da locviT davamarcxoT isini. ra Tqma unda Znelia. sul cdilobda mwyobridan gamoyvanas, Tan TvalebSi marTaliviT miyurebda.. yvelaferi ar iTqmis. bevri ecada, magram araferi gamouvida... mere daviT da konstantinem miages is rac ukuRmarTobiT hqonda damsaxurebuli. erTs meore cvlida... iqeqebodnen Cems nivTebSi. Sesawiris yuTidan, Cumad amohqondaT fulebi, raTa me `gamoveWireT~ qurdobaSi. erTxel, ori `mRvdeli~, sxvadasxva mxridan gamoqanda Cems mimarTulebiT. droze movaswari gamorkveva, cdilobdnen mxrebiT damtakebodnen da am simaRlidan gadavegdeT, magram erTi, romelic avicdine, TiTon gadaeSva gaWirvebuli. cocxal-mkvdari amoviyvaneT. mainc ar gaswira RmerTma.

Tavidan RmerTi salosobas mTxovda. Seuracyofa da avi sityva bevri viwvnie. ra saxis ciliswameba ar gaavrceles Cems yaCaRobaze, iaraRis tarebaze, saidumlo bandis meTaurobaze, qalebze, fulze, TamaSze. naTesavebs aiZulebdnen `eRiarebinaT~ Cemi danaSaulebrivi saqmeebi. ZmiSvili waiyvanes dakiTxvaze da rom arafers xeli ar moawera, meore dRes 7 kacs acemines. didi xnis win momwamles. vici vinc Caidina. kiboTi gardaicvala sawyali. mainc Semecoda, daavales im gaWirvebuls. momwamles ager zafxulSic. esec vici vinc Caidina... Tbilisidan iyvnen!... jerac ver gamovedi!.. xom xedavT ena meborkeba, es mowamvlis Semdgom damrCa. sul sicxeebi maqvs, magram mainc unda gavuZlo. eqimTan ar mivsulvar. erTxel ki gamsinjes.... me jer ar gaval am qveynidan, babua!... orjer manqana damatakes. erTxel msubuqad gadavrCi, meored mTeli Rame vegde Zvlebdatvreuli.

devna mxolod fizikuri ar iyo. fizikurad Zlieri viyavi. TbilisSi, isic momiwyes rom erTi qurdi Caries Cems saqmeSi. mas ise auxsnes, rom me raRac saqme mqonda gafuWebuli. sanam qurdi simarTleSi gaerkveoda, ori oTxkaciani jgufi damesxa Tavs. ver mcemes. xom giTxariT, magrad vurtyamdi meTqi (icinis). qurdi, saqmeSi rom `gaerkva~, miTxra marTali kaci yofilxaro... marTali me imitom ki ar var _ vuTxari me _ rom Sen meubnebi, marTali imitom var, rom RmerTma momca simarTle_meTqi. fexis yovel nabijze axal-axali faTerakebi ar maklda... isini amiT Cems gatexvas cdilobdnen, rom mRvdloba dametovebina.

gacilebiT Znelia uxilavi, sulieri devna. boroti yvelanairi iarRiT mebrZoda. roca marto viyavi monasterSi, eSmaki modioda, oRond karis zRurbls ver abijebda, idga da melaparakeboda. araa saintereso, ras laparakobda is wyeuli?! (icinis). ra da ra saxis cxovelis da qvemZromis saxiT ar modioda. iqceoda ZaRlad da yefda mTeli Rame. erTxel `SuaRamianis~ locvisTvis gaviRviZe da vxedav, sami virTxa didi gulmodginebiT RrRnida CanTas, sadac saxareba medo. mivxvdi vinebi myavda `stumrad!..~ hoda, qristes saxeliT vubrZane namdvili saxe gamoeCinaT!.. gamoaCines kidevac: Cems win sami kaci aRimarTa!.. isini didxans ar eSvebodnen eklesias!... .hoda, im RamiT Camigdo RmerTma xelSi!.... es visTvis meTqva?! vin damijerebda?! _ aravin! _ ufro meti, giJad gamomacxadebdnen da `fsixuSkaSi~ gamaqanebdnen!... ori, im sami kudianidan, dResac cocxalia fizikurad!.. Tumca eklesias moscildnen!... isini Tavisi sikvdiliT unda aResrulon!.. maSin RmerTi ganamwesebs maT sadac jer ars!.. me SemeZlo damexoca maSin, roca virTxis sxeuliT iyvnen!.. magram vicodi, vinebic iyvnen!.. es maT TviTonac awyobdaT!.. amiT isini gaixangrZlivebdnen sulier yofas sxva sxeulSi!...

RmerTs sul vgrZnobdi. boroti gansakuTrebiT sastikad mebrZoda, roca uxmod wirvis dayeneba daviwye martom!... 25 weli movandome mecadineobas, uwyveti locvebisaTvis rom mimeRwia!. wmida aleqsi SuSania mecxadeboda da is mexmareboda locvis srulyofaSi.!.

aki giTxariT, rom isini yvela Rones, xerxebsa da mzakvrobebs iyenebdnen imisTvis, rom eklesidan movecilebineT!... erTxel, didmarxvaSi, pirvelSewirulis liturgia unda Cametarebina. tarigi gamzadebuli mqonda sanawileSi trapezze. roca taZarSi sadilis Jamni ikiTxeboda, Sevimose da barZim_feSxumi samkveTloze davabrZane. Semdeg feSxumi Sublis simaRleze daviWire da trapezTan mivedi, raTa tarigi feSxumze damebrZanebina. magram gamzadebuli tarigi sanawileSi ar damxvda. warmoidgineT, ra mdgomareoba iqneboda mRvdelisTvis!... adgils ver vpoulobdi, taZridan gamovedi. TavSi araferi momdioda, rogor gamovsuliyavi mdgomareobidan. arc is, vis SeeZlo aseTi mkrexeloba Caedina... urTules sulier mdgomareobaSi myofi, taZarSi Sevbrundi.. sakurTxevelSi axalgazrda Wabuki damxvda da samkveTlosken mimiTiTa... gavvocdi... samkveTloSi ukveTi sefiskveris davinaxe.. RmerTi vadide da axali tarigi saswrafod gavamzade... pirvelSewiruli liturgia davasrule. isev gamomecxada is Wabuki da miTxra: `giorgi, me konstantine var!... da icode, RmerTma miiRo Seni msaxureba da amis CamdenT ki, Tavad me mivxedav!.~ sami dRec ar gasula am ambidan... ca saSinlad moiqufra, Rrubeli Camowva monastris Tavze, ca elvam gaapo, mexma motexa taZris kedlis qvis nawili da moxvda erT-erT iq myofTagans, romelic samzareulosken garboda. cota xnis Semdeg, movida da SeSinebulma aRiara, rom: `is da masTan erTad orni, Sesulan sakurTxevelSi da CaudeniaT es mkrexeloba.~ Tanve miTxra, visi davalebiTac moqmedebdnen! kidev, ramodenime dRis Semdeg, im oridan erT-erTi, cecxlsasroli iaraRidan daiWra, mesamem ki saswrafod datova aqauroba, rogorc gavige, isic raRac did SarSi yofila gaxveuli...

roca Cemze JurnalSi statia gamoaqveynes, movida erTi Cemi `nacnobi~ `samsaxurebidan~ da miTxra: `giorgi, proklamaciebis weras moeSvi, Torem cudi droa, SemTxveviTma tyviam ar gimsxverploso!~ me tyviis ar meSinia da arc arafris! _ vuTxari. mere eparqiidanac movida erTi: `ase SemogiTvales, mamao, Tbilisidan gvawuxeben, miatovos werao da mdumared wirvao~. me miCveuli var amisTanebs. Tu vinmes rame awuxebs me piradad miTxras!.. cxonebulma, maradis xsenebulma kaTolokos - patriarqma daviTma (devdariani) miTxra: `giorgi, Svilo, ar memetebi tyviisTvis!... magram Cvens saqmeSi sabralo kaci ver ivargebs... unda iomo da gauZlo!...” da winaswar Cemi momavali cxovrebis epizodebi momiyva. mimaniSna pirad mterze. bevri ram miTxra da gamomadga misi rCevebi.

Tavi SegawyineT Cemi ambebiT, magram xom ici, SenianebTan guls, rom gaxsni, mogeSveba. cota xnis win sad iyo mrevli, an amdeni samRvdeloeba. Zneli iyo marto... axla ki naxeT ramdeni dadis eklesiebSi. erTxel, marto darCenils, maRali sicxeebi mqonda, aravin amosula. RmerTisgan nugeSi ar maklda, magram adamianis naxvasac aqvs Zala. menatreboda vinme amosuliyo. gana wamali mindoda?!... siyvaruli didi Zalaa. roca RmerTi adamianis gulSi damkvidrdeba, geubnebi, iseT rameebs xedavs, rom ver warmoidgenT. mTeli buneba gexmareba. WianWvela rom WianWvelaa, isic raRacas miganiSnebs. erTxel erTi WianWvela Semosuliyo. (icinis) Saqari rom naxa, Tavisianebisken gaeSura: `aba, wavediT giorgisTan, Saqari movutaniao!~... am katas, rom xedavT, me micavs, radgan aq Cven orni varT Wognareli!... saintereso da saocaria buneba, magram adamianze aRmatebuli araferi ar aris!...

saxlis gauqmebas ratom ganvicdi, ukve giTxariT, Torem me piradad Zalian didi saxli, isic xelTuqmneli maqvs zecaSi... iqve aqvs saxli giorgi brwyinvales!!! me Cemi am qveynad araferi gamaCnia, arc saxli da arc manqana, arc telefoni, arc fuli, arc vali, magram adamianebis siyvaruli da qarTuli kacoba wmindad Seminaxavs.